So...4 weeks old

Hard to believe that only 4 weeks ago I was in the hospital with Nathan. Thinking back...he has changed SO much! I don't think I noticed the changes until this week. Its as if he remained the same until this last week, and wahlah...he has filled out and looks like he has grown 9 inches! He is getting so big! It kind of breaks my heart...I now know what my mom and dad meant whey they would tell me they wanted to put bricks on my head so I would'nt grow. I want Nathan to stay a newborn for forever...but at the same time, I can't wait to take him to the playground or swimming. Its all so overwhelming, and so enjoyable at the same time. I am really loving being a mother...though I do worry, quite a bit, if I am a good mother. I hope that is normal...

So, a little about Nathan right now. He eats about every 3 hours. Sometimes it is less, and every once in a while it is more (but not often at all). He sleeps a lot (except at night it seems). He is starting to stay awake more and more, and now has definate "awake times". He seems to be on an 8am, 11am, 2pm, 5pm, 8pm, 11pm, 2am, 5am schedule - foodwise. His awake times are normally after his 8am feeding, and then after his 8pm feeding. During his awake times he just likes to look around. He LOVES the color red and LOVES music. In the mornings, after he is fed, bathed and clothed, we try to sit in the rocker and read a book or listen to music on his little cd player. Its very peaceful in his nursery, and he seems to really like being in there. Currently, he sleeps in the pack-n-play next to our bed, for easy access, but I dont think the move to his crib is too far in the future. It just seems so big right now.

Anyway...we have started to get more comfortable getting out of the house. We take walks a couple times a week, or go to Jonathon's softball games. I have noticed that if we do too much in one day, Nathan is fussy at night. Same with allowing too many new people to hold him...it just makes bedtime and the entire night rough (for him and me).

What else? right now I think that is it...